as i remain...

As I remain in my Natural Condition at all levels - body, energy, and mind – and am present in the flow of Life, as today I have no idea what will be next in my life.
Another transition is unfolding…I feel my destiny – a destiny that is my creation.
What to create in this moment?
Nothing is coming forward…the inner driving force that creates action is not there.
All is like a dream with no story. It could be very depressing, but it is not. The only thing I know as true is my Primordial Condition.
Nothing to believe, nothing to pray to, all has vanished.
This is absolute surrender.
The creative energy must arise by itself.
If it is not arising then one must be patient and relaxed in their Natural Condition, as creating action by the mind might take me to another illusion, and I am not interested in another illusion.
She (illusion) can manifest in whatever way - in relationship, teaching, creating a mandala and reality that is not emerging from my Inner Essence but from passion, aggression or attachment ...– all of this is not for me anymore.
This is where I am at now, and it requires a lot of strength in the Dzogchen or Tao to go beyond all of this.
In Tao we would say – one must choose the Absolute Reality…only then one can be totally free.
One must choose the Absolute Reality of the Primordial Condition…everything else in life is a display of illusion.
You can choose to see illusions as real or as a projection of your mind, emotion, or as some would say, ego.
The more you implant yourself into the Natural State the more your Heart opens and the more you become this Pure Awake Presence full of Love that radiates through your entire beings’ cells.
To anchor this in the three bodies – physical, energy, mind - it is necessary to go through what I described above – once you have the inner knowledge, you must choose with all of your multidimensional being that this is it, this is the Absolute Reality.
When you have made this decision, there is nothing else to search for.
At this point you can integrate all aspects of life with its diverse manifestations created by the illusory body and not get lost.
This is the ultimate meaning of Clear Light Tantra.
One can play and dance in life without getting lost in the illusory body because he or she has gained the inner knowledge that only one thing remains beyond day and night, life and death, and that is the Clear Light of Awake Presence full of Love that radiates through your entire beings’ cells and atoms.
Dhaya Dorje